THE F***ing Pain

Well I have not seen Diana for a week now. And it is hurting me. I have to stop this pain real soon before it kills me. I mean that this is going to kill me. I have to find away to deal with her and our children. I love our kids and I miss them. Now about Diana am in love with her. I always have been and always will be.

Dear Diana

Baby now matter what dear , I know we can can work this out but you have to trust me.
I do miss you and our kids.
I love you more everyday. Even if my heart is still broken it still belongs to you.
I just cannot tell you how much I Love you.
I want you and I want you and our kids back. There is I said it !!!!!!!!!
I fought for a long time for you and now the only thing I have left is my love for you and my faith.
Nothing feels this void in my heart. I cannot get you of my head or heart. You our in my dreams burned so deep inside of my thoughts. I dream about you and my mind is always on you and our children.
Am taking all of my classes.
Am taking this classes for myself, am taking them for our kids all four of them. And most of all for you.
You and our children is all that matters to me. I said it again I hope you understand that. Because I understand you are trying to keep our kids.
And I know that you still are still in love with me. How do I know this ? You told me remember when you called me just a few weeks ago ?
Am not going to push you into coming back yet. We have time I know this am not stupid.
Get the our kids back and then I want you and our children to come back home were you and our children belong.
The only thing I am asking you is too not give up on you and I. We still Love each other. True Love is what we have. A love like that is real and I do not want you to throw it away.
Am one true love and am your best friend. I will never turn my back on you.
I love you Diana I do want you and I need you.
Mike

Going to Anger Mgmnt.

I have ordered to take Anger Mgnt classes.
I really do not want to go these classes. I know I need them for I am very anger about Diana and the kids are with me at the moment.
I do need help over this. I do hurt over this there is nothing I want more than to be with my family.
Why am I being punished like this, what did I do in my life that I have to loose my family ?
Am not looking forward to this not at all.
Now , I know that I have to take these classes to get my family back but I cannot control what Diana does.
I want her back and I will do anything for this to happen.
I Love her and I do miss her and our children. I just pray too God that he will bless me that I will have the power in myself to bring back my family.
Only with God's grace that I can do this. Am no Superman, however I do have the heart as Superman. And there is nothing that I would not do for my wife and children.

Trying to be understanding

God works on his on time. I just to remember this.
I just get in a big ass hurry. I am so worried. Yet , I do understand that this is going to take time.
For me to get my life back on track.
I have faith and I believe in the fact that Diana and our children will get back together.
I just have to0 learn to let the good Lord do his job.
And I will give myself time to get things back in order when Diana comes back home to me.
Like getting our house back.
And fixing up our house. Such as getting a fence built .
Setting things up like our bank account.
This blog is about my life. I will keep posting about how things our going with Diana and our children and myself. God Bless you

Asking

Lord please before I leave my friends house. i just want to talk to you for a few a little bit longer.
Am worried and am afraid. I want and need my family back.
Please bring us a good night together.
Lord I am asking you sir. Let tonight be the start of a good life together.
Please father I pray I ask and I begg you father.

I am praying for a good night with Diana

Well right when I thought that me and Diana was going to have another set back.
She sends me a text this morring and not only that she calls me up and tells me that she will be working tonight and that she wants to see me.
Well that last time we saw each other she gave me some head. And she left some marks on my neck.
She has told me that she does indeed Love me. But she is just so afraid that DHS will give her our kids back.
After all I do understand. I would most likey have done the same thing. But I would never turn my back on her no matter what.
Now her is her text to me after she told me she cannot see anymore.
"Hey am not mad at you. You have to understand that am trying to keep our kids. Sorry if this you think about our kids."

Now am really need help with my feelings about her. Now I know that I am in Love with her and I know that she is still in Love with me as well.
Everyday is so hard. I hate living without her and our kids the only time am truly happy is when we are together. Even if it is only for a few two hours A day. I really do pray that you God will bring us back together.
Everything that we have been through is like a Soap Opera.
It will be worth all the pain that we are going through at the end of this. When we our both done with court and we can work it out to be together again. I pray that the Lord our Father our God will hears me soon.

I really do need

Why am I having a hard time dealing with Diana.
Diana, has told me that she does still Love me but she thinks that if she comes back to me that she will not get our kids back.
It is so hard trying to get through this.
We are still talking to one another and yes we both have seen each other these past few weeks.
That I should be happy for that however.
I am not happy with the fact that we have not seen one another this week.

Can God please hear my prayers and help me and her to get our family back together.

Needing help with Diana

I do not know why am feeling blue today.
I talked to Diana twice today and we our going to meet later today as as well.
We meet up on Monday Night this week and she gave a little head and and I gave her some head as well.
It is not enough though. I want more not more sex but i want my family back.
There is nothing that i want more in this world then to have Diana and our kids back.
Am working hard on this, and i know she is trying as well. Even if she does not say she is. But when she calls me and writes me emails and and we meet up that is her way in showing me that she does care about me and that she Loves me.
Even if she does not say it. Her actions our talking for her.
Am not crazy am just in Love with her. I am lost without her however I have to stay strong for our family.
I have to try to find away too pay for house and for my classes that i need to take. I do not know if Taco Mayo will bring me back on I just pray that they will.
There is nothing that I will not do if they will not bring me back on.,
I have been giving blood to make extra money however I do know I( cannot keep doing it to much longer.
Lord I need your help like right now.
Can you please guild me and lead me to the right path to bring my family back together.
I cannot do it by myself.
I love my family with all my heart and soul please help me.
Am asking you to bless me and Diana.

Working Hard to get my family Back.

I do believe in God, I do believe in my faith.
I do believe that Diana and our kids will come back home to me.
I do believe that the Lord will get us through this.
My friends think am crazy. And Diana is having a hard time in dealing with her feelings about me.
She just does not understand how am so much in Love with her after all she has been so mean to me.
I love her with all my heart and soul and am her best friend.
She has been mine. Even after she has been so cruel too me. I know why she does try to push me away.
She is afraid.
It goes like the old saying that what you do not understand you try to destroy it.
Well she tried to destroy our love for one another. But the more she tried to fight her own feeling for me she just came closer to me.
I do not need to do nothing just to keep telling her that I love her.
And show her that I am very strong and am doing doing what I said I would do.
Like taking my classes seeing the Doctor and doing everything that the Judge tells me to do.
And most off all. Getting our house back and working hard to get everything back that we have lost.
It sounds simple right.
Well it is not. It is very hard to get everything lined up just right after what has happened but I have to get this done everything to the T.
I Love You Diana and I have always Loved You and I always will.

Am trying really hard to not to give up on Diana

Now I am trying real hard to fix mine and Diana's problems.
I know she has to do her share to as well.
We have been talking and we have been seeing one another. Every day an trying to keep my goals set and work for them.
My goals are simple I want my family back. Mikey , Ruthy , Randy , Deah , and the love of my life Diana.
I know that she loves me. Why ? She is talking to me after all this time. After all this time that we went through.
But what makes us stronger as a family.
We can work this out. And I know with God on our side we can get through this.
I will always bring myself up for this fight for my family.

Still In Love with Diana

Everyday I fall more in Love with Diana. I miss her.
I just cannot stand it. When we are a part.

Love you Baby.

Everyday is getting better between Diana and I

Last night Diana and I went out and we talked some and we kissed and messed around a little ok we messed around a lot.
I love her with all my heart and soul. And Diana , told me again how she really feels about me. Now I want her back so so bad and our kids.
And I pray that God will bring us back together.
And this time I will not let down God and Diana and our kids.
I miss her with all my heart and soul. And God knows that I am in Love with her and Diana is still in Love with me too.
I cannot tell you how much she means to me. I cannot put it in too words. I love Diana so damn much. I need her and I want her.
I want to hold her again and kiss her.
She and the kids means so much to means.
Well am still going to do everything for my family. Am nothing without my family.

A Promise to Diana and our kids

I miss you and our kids.
Diana , I am at a lost of words right now.
I am here for you. I just cannot get you out of heart .
I love you am in Love you Diana.
I never knew that the pain would be this deep inside of me. Nothing helps to stop it.

I will always Love you Diana. It is not too Late for us. I know you Love me too.
And I will always Love You.
I will get everything back soon trust me. I have never let you down and I will be damn if I do it now.

Just give me some time Diana, I am going to work soon.
I just got all of my back pay to my unemployment check. $2000.00 dollars.
So I will be a car real soon. Then i will get my phone back on .
i know I will go back to work this week or next week.

I will get our house back and I will take all of the classes.
Am not doing this for myself but am doing it for all four of our kids Deah , Randy , Ruthy , and Mikey.
But of all I am doing it for you and me.

I need you and I want you back. I can say it better than that
Expect by saying that you are and have been and will always be the Love of my Life.

Love You Always, I really am in Love with you Diana all I have is my prayers that you will come back soon.

Love You Baby am always going to the be in Love with You Diana
Mike

God Answers Prayers

God does answer prayers. I know it is to be true, but I do believe that God is giving me a chance to get my life back.
First I got all of my back pay.
Then I got a job interview this coming week. And My back pay is going to be enough to buy me a car.
And My ex girlfriend Diana called me.
Am telling you God is leading me in the right path. Now if you think am wrong that is your choice a lone. I believe, and my faith does not need anyone else to have anyone else to believe in.

Yes, I have faith that I will get a car this coming week. I faith that i will a job real soon and I believe and have faith that my family will soon come back to me.
God Bless you.

Diana the Love of my Life Calling me back

I do not know if I should say this on my Blog yet , am going to post it anyways.
I have posted about the Love of my Life Diana.
Well , yes she did leave me. But she is calling me. And she is hinting around that she made a mistake. Thank God.
I knew I has right. I knew it. I knew she wants to come back. And I know she still Loves Me.
But how do we fix this.
I need to know.
I love her and I cannot get her out of my heart. I cannot get out of my mind.
I do not know what to do.
We need help.

On the First Date do We screw ?

First Date ?
Well, here is My Thought On it.

After all those E Mail that you wrote and all the phone calls that you made. Being all nice and sweat. Just trying to get that spark going. You are thinking, Man I just want to have sex, she is hot. Hallar at Me if You Hear Me !!!!!!

Now you have to clean your car, clean your house, wash your best clothes, and shave. After all this you are thinking " I know that she better be getting Laid. Hallar at Me if You Hear Me !!!!!!

Now you have to remember all the questions and her answers , that you asked her from the E mails and phone calls. What kind of food does she like to eat ? What kind of movies does she enjoy ? Does she like to drink before dinner or after dinner ?
Man, this is hard work. I must be getting laid.
Hallar At me If You Hear Me !!!!!!!!!

And how it hits you, Damn It !!!! I have to spend some of my Beer, money to take her out. And you say to yourself " Shit I better get some Head...
Hallar At Me If You Hear Me !!!!!!!!!!

Now, Tell the Truth. After all this. You are saying Hell Ya.
We Screw on the First Date. LoL
Leave your comments. Hallar at Me If You Hear Me !!!!!!!!

Never give Up

Have you ever been in a spot in your life where you. Thought having is going right. Well that is were am at today. Well I have been here for the last three mths.
I lost my job, and I was arrested and my girlfriend left me.
Then I lost my car, and now am about to loose my house.

Well I just want to say do not give up !!!!!!!!!
Now I mean it, am not giving up. One day soon , I know things have to get better they have to.
I mean it cannot suck like the rest of my life. So here I am, trying to get my life back in order.

First thing, I did I had to stop feeling sorry for myself. Second is I needed to start writing about my life. You know it helps.
Now , till I find a job. I have started a blog. To try to earn some money from it. I just need to write about my thoughts, on sports today.
Not only do I have a sports blog, I have a this blog, which is a way to vent. On my life that I write on when I feel a little blue.
Well a lot blue and down.

I think that everyone should write, get it off your chest. Do not let it eat at you.
I will be blogging till the good lord calls me home.
Well I wish everyone the best.
God bless you

For Diana

Maybe I didn't love you quite as good as I should have,
Maybe I didn't hold you quite as often as I could have,
Little things I should have said and done,
I just never took the time.

You were always on my mind,
You were always on my mind.

Maybe I didn't hold you all those lonely, lonely times,
And I guess I never told you, I'm so happy that you're mine,
If I made you feel second best,
I'm sorry, I was blind.

You were always on my mind,
You were always on my mind,

Tell me, tell me that your sweet love hasn't died,
Give me, give me one more chance to keep you satisfied,
If I made you feel second best,
I'm sorry, I was blind.

You were always on my mind,
You were always on my mind.

Baby I will always Love You "Diana "

Sometimes I want to eat a Bullet

I do not know about you, but, would you like to just eat a bullet ? Or eat that whole bottles of pills ?

Well don't!!!!!!
I know life is hard but whatever you please do not do that, I have tried it. The whole bottle of pills.
Before it just did not do the job, that I was shooting for.
All I got was a huge hospital bill.
Trust me I know life is hard, I life is real fucking hard.
And I know that sometimes you might think why go on.

To tell you the truth, sometimes a lot of time I ask myself the question why did the pills did not work ?
Well I cannot answer that, I do know am still here and the dealing with this fucked up world.
I just lay down and wait to fall a sleep or die.
Well am not going to die so ,I will write you this post.
Do not give up like I said I know it sucks but just me it will get better.
Well that is what they told me !!!!!!!!!!!!!

I cannot replace Ivy

I was wrong about one thing that girl, that leaves of Sooner road. Is a real Bitch.
And I was wrong about the girl that I went to school with at OCCC. She is a real sweet heart.
If I date anyone after Ivy, who is still the love of my life, and will always be the love of my life.
Well after; I had a date with the girl that lives of Sooner, I told the one in Tulsa. Well she was fine with it till she found out that girl kind of told me off.
So she made me give her phone number, so I did and she did call her, or so she said, she did.
So we talked for a couple of hours.
And she made told me I had to go to bed, in her mind I guess if we go to bed at the same time it is like we went to bed together.
Well it is not the same not even close to it !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Right guys..............

So before I go bed I wrote her a E mail; and i am writing this post.
Here is the E Mail:

"Baby, I know I said I was going to bed.
But I had to write this letter to you. First.
Meeting you has been a blessing from God.
There is nothing and I mean nothing wrong with you.

You are truly the most Beautiful woman, that I have ever meet. I love your hair and I just fall in those beautiful eyes of yours (the blue and green.) I love your hair, and your skin color, is breath taking.
Those people who have treated you bad, does not matter.
I wish I could take away your pain.
I know it will all workout, between you and I.

It is hard to believe that, I have meet someone like you. For being the kind of person that I am. There is nothing that I would not do for my son. And I would like very much to add you into my heart, where there will be only you and my son.
Am a very caring person and loving person. I have been through a lot. Sometimes I do think about eating a bullet.
But the thought of my son, keeps me from doing it.
And now the thought of you keeps me from doing it.

You see, am not afraid of dieing, not at all. I can care less if I live or die. I just want the pain to stop. And am glad to say that the more I get to talk to you, the more the pain stops.
Well until I log off, and then I just to think about my son, and hopefully to be able to see you, date you, kiss you, and hold you tight in my arms.
Well I think I said nuff.
Am going to bed. now. And I will try to catch you on here soon.

Te Amo; Tina
Mike "
I know it is kind of Sad, and all. However, this Blog is more like my life story, well at least, this part of my life.
I still have this undying Love for Ivy, that will never be replaced. Not by anyone. Is it fair, maybe not. But she is still the love of my life. How can I ever, turn my back on her eben if she turned her back on me.
Well Nuff Said, I want to say good night, and I love you Ivy.

Dating, But trying to replace Ivy

Now am single again, I have been talking to a couple of a ladies.
One lives in Tulsa, and the other two live in Oklahoma City.
Well I do like all three of them, yet, for one reason only. I just want top have sex with. Now I know that is not right. And I know I should not be talking like that.
Hell, why not.
I already told them that is all I want, is to be buddies.
Why, am I being so honest with them, well it is simple enough I am still in Love with my Ex ( Ivy ).

Yeah, I know you guys are saying moved on man.
Well am not going to move on, in way of getting married to anyone else.
Yes, I will date these other women. However, am not going to move them in. Or, move in there homes.
I have a houser and it is mine and Ivy's home.
No woman, needs or will replace her, she is always will be the love of my life.
Well, these women know this already.
and for right now they act like it is just fine.
The one girl in Tulsa, is 23 year, well we all know that is not going to be long term. Now I know this is not all right, because I am just thinking about sex, with her. but am just guy what can I say on that.
Another Lady, is 26. and she lives by me in Del City, just a few miles away.
Now to me she is nothing but a whore, and that I will never have anything more but sex. Matter a fact, I might just hit it, one time only. That is all, and I would wear two Jimmy Hats.

Now the other woman, lives just few miles away from right off Sooner.
Now I like her, I can really talk to this one.
However, I want is to be a Buddy, to hang out, and just have sex.
No strings or anything like that.
We both agree, on that.
Well I will call her and see what is up.
And plan it out a date.
We will see.
Nuff Said

Dealin with my friend,and his kid !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Last night my friend picked me up at my house. So I can hang with him.
So I said yeah, that be cool. Everything, was cool we watched a movie, then my friend went to bed.
He waited to wake up easrly so he can hang out with his other friend that was diving in, Cal.
Yet, I stayed up writting on my sports Blog.
I fall asleep about, 5:30 am.
I woke up, and I started writting on my Sports Blog, again.
I was showing my friends, son. He is 12 a yr old. My stats, how much they are going every mth.
then out no were.
The boy, started talking trash about me. Saying atleast I did not go out with a Hooker.
He must have heard his dad, say that my Friend. Yeah right!!!!!
I know he is my fried, however, he cannot Judge me, Only God, can Judge me.

Just because, I have had problems with my Ex Girlfriend. Does make her a hooker.

I still love her, and it brothers me when they talk about her.
I Do not why, because we have been broke up for a while, but I still love her.
Well Nuff said,
I just want to smack this kid, but I cannot, for it is not his fault he is only saying what hia dad has said.

Crying and Laughing

Ok, My friend, in the Group From, England. Asked When was the Last Time you Laughed and Cried ?In her Post on her Blog.This was my Comment.When was the last I laughed ?The last time I had my son, he was playing with his video game.Driving all over the screen. And keep saying WaWhoo, as he was hitting the other cars, in the Video game.

Oh and we get into my car to go somewhere, we play that the Yello Car Game, whenever you see a Yellow car, call it out and you get a ponit for every Yellow Car, but, he gets behind ponit so he will change the car to win. Then it turns into Blue Car 2 ponits Daddy Hah ha. Grenn Truck daddy 2 ponits haha.I love my son !!!!!!!!!!

When did I last Cry and Why ?The last time I broke down and cryed, my bloody heart out ?Well, I do not want to loose any " lummpy Ponits "...........But am going to be honest !!!!!!!!!!September 15 2003, My family spilt up, Wife left took our son.I cryed that night, not for my my Wife leaving, But, I was not going to play with my son before I put him to bed.I cry every day, maybe not outside, but from the inside, breaks my heart, that i can be with my son.

And writting this Post thinking about my son. The hardest thing to Do, is packing his clothes up every other Sunday. And taking my little boy back to his Mother. I cry the whole drive back, from the time he gives me kiss and tells me " Love Daddy "

I cry all the way back, Home.

Well Jems; I always end by saying Who loves ya

It is going to be different this time.

Who Loves You Mikey ?

Your DaDDy that is is Who!!!!

I love my my Son.Lummpy71

Do you think You Know Me ?

Hello Groupes;Do you think you know me ?I do not think so. However, after this you will be learn more about me.You already, know I have a son, and am single.You know that my Ex took My Dog, and you do know that I still love her.

And you know that am not just looking for sex. And that I like to Rant.Can there be more, yes, ther is alot more. One of the Groups,I signed up to Join, is not in Oklahoma City. Hell it is not in Oklahoma at all.Matter a fact is not in the United States, even.It is Jolly O'll England. Why ? You might be thinking, ok , how are going to hook up. With a Chic, in England. Unless you have enough money to go to England.Now that is a good point.

Yet, like I said am looking for much more, than a Romp in bed.I joined the group yes because, of a woman. After reading her blog. She made me think, about what she was writting. She put somer thought into it. She made laugh, and great looks brought a tear to my eye.I would love to just pack up, and go Vist Jolly O'LL England, and have a few drinks with her and talk face to face.I will go there, oneday.Not to live there because I love the Good O'LL U.S.A.

Well get back what I was saying, that I did join to meet and talk to my new group of friends, about everything that is under the star lit skills.From Sex, to drinking to yes real thoughts on world issuies. I learn a diffferent oppions, from good people in a different country.Well any ways,I like that group. And this post is about our group. And for the woman, that I meet and being the reason why I joined. Am pleased to say I still read her blog,and post everyday.So now you more alittle about me.

This is your Buddy Lummpy; saying have a great day

Welcome to My Blog

Hello groupies;Now it is Friday night, and am writting this post to tell you more about myself. Well you call this adding onto my profile.Well I have been asked what I want from this this site and Blog. Here is my answer; I want to make some friends and i want to meet that one person, that will not only catch my eye, however, I really want that woman, to catch my heart.I do not know how much I have on this planet, before i go to the other side. Thay is not deep the is just me. I did find that one one person yet, we cannot just find our way to each other.So at this point, I am lost in my thoughts and just maybe my mind. It is not self pride or male pride. Am a happy person most of the time, yet, at time am thinking about her. Por kids and what happened.You ask yourself why, this had to happen ?Now for this site am not really looking for that one person, am looking for myself.Meeting new people helps me figer out more of myself. We trade stories, we talk. And just maybe we like to hook up.So I would really like to hear from all of you. Tell me whatever commnet you like to live is fine with me.feel free to say anything at all, Welcome to my Blog.

A sex letter; to my love of my life

this what I want to do to you.Hold you tight, as I as I kiss you, Bitting your neck, feeling your body next to mine feeling your heart beat. Undressing each other.Kissing you ,holding your arms back as I suck on your breast. Your Nipples are hard, as i flick my toung, across them.Feeling heat fron your body, I pull down to the bed, so I can give sum head. As I am licking you you are rising your hips up and down.Because I placed two figers inside you.Pulling my figers out so I cast your sweat juice on them. Rubbing on your clit, as I lick, I stop before you cum, only for a second I want hear you moan, before you cum.I start again, till you cum. I do not stop because am drunk from your sweat juicie Cum.Crawl over you so I can kiss you.Rolling you over, so you can ride my cock.Feeling my dick go inside you, feel so good. I just want to die for nothing can be bettter, than you riding me.Watching you as you rock back forth, your hair in your face, you wipe it back so I can kiss your lips, feeling your breast on my cheast, just bearly touching my face. Sucking grabbing your breast, holding your ass tight, I am about explode. I pull you down closer to me not wanting you to move. I cum and I cum.feeling so good and hot I love embrace.As you climb off me, I have after cum Because pulling out of you. Hitting your clit, on my shaft is almost to much to take.So I say to you, this letter is for you.I wants, some sex with you.You know how you are, I want to feel how it is to be inside you, to feel your body next to mine, God let there be time. I hope my sex letter to you does not get left behind.Knowing I have to play By the rules, I hope it will not take long to have sex with you, for that is truly would be crule. Putting my heart on my sleave, I hope it does not make you want to leave.We have started on my Blog, I hope soon you will embrace my Log. Wanting to be fucking you, holdind you , kissing you, is something that I need to do.Writting you, you is telling you, asking you to step in the light, please do not fight, I know you can see it sight.So I ask Baby, please be my baby for atleast for a night.Love Ya baBy

Tell you about me

I want to tell people alittle about myself. I am 35 years old, am white male that is part Indian. I live in Oklahoma City, Oklahoma. I am buying a second home. Am a father of a handsom young son, he looks alot me. Am good in bed, if you want to talk to me free and let me know. I will answer every Emails. I love BBW, between 165 to 200lbs.Full figure woman, is what I enjoy. Sence am 6ft and weigh about 22o. I want to feel a woman and all of her curves. Well if you think am your kind of man. Write me a Email.

getting to Know You

Tonight, I was been a wake for for days now, however, I have been stessing anything like that I have talking, to my friend Bill, I over his house. Just hanging out, and i have been chatting with a woman, that I would like to get know.I fixed my Sports Blog, it is up and running, I also.Been so at ease it is not only funny but is really funny.Now I know that I need to be a gent. And I try.I love to talk, even after sex. I there is nothing like a good pillow talk. After, you just had sex,Sence I didnot have sex tonight it is okay.I still had a great time.I will go to sleep, I guess on July the 5th. loLNow i said that i would try to get some sleep tonight. But hey shit happens!!!!I am complaning at all. I hope this young lady reads this post, I have a feeling she will. LoLIn closing I would say if I do not get to talk to you any more tonight. I hope you sleep tight.I hope you have sweat dreams. For it seems that you and I are alike. and I gdon't usualy do this but my real name is Mike.Well That turned in a Lummpy Thought, so Nuff Said. This might be good Night.

Well a fallow up , To 24

Do you ever feel like you are in the TV show 24? I do, lost my job, went to jail, have fight in court, FUCKING DHS took my kids away from me, when they should have help my kids, my love of my life(Diana) ran off with another man. All in a 3 week time line. God I need you, please. Then I joined Adult FriendFinder.
My whole changed before I new it, people do like me and they want to meet me. Now I know my pain well soon go away.Why, because I love there is alot of women out there that want to meet me anf hook up.
Now am not saying that, I have fallen out of with Diana or that I have fallen in love with anyone else.What I am saying that Adult FriendFinder. has given me and many other to heel, from our hearts being riped out of cheast.So in closing I may nopt be a king but am not a fool.And just like in 24 the TV show it gets better at the end of the show. Nuff said

Did you ever brake up with Girlfriend and she took your Dog ?

Did you ever brake with the your partner and they took yourdog? Well that happened to me. My Ex girlfriend, broke upwith me, and she took all of our dogs. Can you picture howheart broken I was, Damnit, she even took my puppy. Ok, youmight be saying well they were her dogs to. Or you could besaying that BITCH!!! Well I went with the second of course.I mean not only did she leave me and i cannot see my step kids,but the BITCH!!! TOOK MY DOGS. Now I just want to know if that ever happened to you. I cannot even look at another dog now, I am messed up. It hurts. You know. Well Nuff Said

Getting to know You

I was sitting on my bed, trying to finger what to do day. Should cut the grass, or should go to one of my friends? Well I just stayed home and it is the forth of July.Nopw you may ask my is this guy just sitting at home for the Holiday ?Well I will tell you why.Am tried, you trying to make small talk just to get a piece of ass.Why can people just be yourself, I want everyone to know about me. That is why am writting this Article.My is Lummpy. I have A blog here Lummpy71. I will leasve a link, but I want more people to share there stories.We will laugh and cry and have a good time together.That is how real people will meet and that is how real people find someone.Well Nuff Said.I want to know you better much love to ya.

Follow up to A Man with sleep

I have been awake for almost four days now.I will go to sleep tonight, I just finished rebuilding my Sorts Blog. i had to rebuild it because some cashed it.I may wrote to you, onyour blog about ny sports blog. i had to get it up and running, that is how I make my living. If we do not work my son does eat. LoL
Well and to pass my time I have been talking and posting to some really good people. Well I will not say any names at all, that is not my style.like I said, I want to say thank you ladies and gents, for letting me join your group.
I cannot tell you guys and gals, what your posts, has ment to me. I laughed, I cryed, i sat up yelled. Oh yes, It has been a rush. Better, reading a book. I was so burned out on sports, I just could not writte any more. The story that sports readers wanted to read about was, The Chris Benoit from the WWE.I did so much research on Benoit, and found out that there was about 60 WWE Athlets, that died over the last tweenty years. The more I wrote about the story the more I got down.My Blog was fun to write and then I didnot even want to write on it. Then the unthinkable happened it crashed.Well I will stop here.Friends have a good dayAbd rememeber your buddy Lummpy Loves Ya.

A man with no sleep

A man with no sleep for three days7/4/2007 6:58 PM
Now I know I have not written on my blog, for a few days. However, Ihave been posting on a a few group sites. If you look I havebeen busy on here AAF. Not only that I have been commenting on other blogs hereon AAF. Which I have been reading alot on a recent blog, also. Amnot going to drop no names, that is not my style. Yet, I willsay I love your sexxy ways, and I love groviee cruries. youknow who you are, by the way I would like those Wonder Womanpics.LoL I have also been rebuilding my Blog, oh no that this one,I blog here to give me a brake, and to talk to some new people.And hopefully hook up with someone that will not brake myheart and take my dog.LoL. She knows that I forgive her andthat I still Love her. But I like said I had to totaly rebuild my blog. you cannot really tell from here, but my job is blogging.You see I have a sports blog. Yeah I know ladies, I can hear you sports ewwee. But hold on am not finished yet. Now am not getting rich fromfrom it. However, I make enough to pay my bills and suriveon. The more I put into it, the more I make. Well enoungh butthat. Well it is July forth, and I have been up for about three daysnow. Yes I had no sleep. If you want to know why, I am going to tell you. So if you donot please stop reading, and go give some cheeseiee lineto that chic or guy. Good am glad you stayed. Now, I HAVE BEEN UP THREE DAYS STAIGHT, because AM SO DOWNAND OUT. I do not want to eat a bullet or jump off a cliff oreat the rat possion. I am tried of the nightmares, I call them nightmares becausewhen I close my eyes all I see is her. I wake up in a cold sweat.and sometimes, it hurts me so bad, I get up out of bed, andi start walking till my legs hurt. I walk everyday about four miles. I think and pray aboutmy life. Well, anyways I will be ok. I have this Blog, andmy sports blog to keep me busy. So I hope your holiday, is great one. And for my new friend one her you know who you are, have a goodday. I will keep giving my Lummpy thoughts, to you .

A man with no sleep

A man with no sleep for three days7/4/2007 6:58 PM
Now I know I have not written on my blog, for a few days. However, Ihave been posting on a a few group sites. If you look I havebeen busy on here AAF. Not only that I have been commenting on other blogs hereon AAF. Which I have been reading alot on a recent blog, also. Amnot going to drop no names, that is not my style. Yet, I willsay I love your sexxy ways, and I love groviee cruries. youknow who you are, by the way I would like those Wonder Womanpics.LoL I have also been rebuilding my Blog, oh no that this one,I blog here to give me a brake, and to talk to some new people.And hopefully hook up with someone that will not brake myheart and take my dog.LoL. She knows that I forgive her andthat I still Love her. But I like said I had to totaly rebuild my blog. you cannot really tell from here, but my job is blogging.You see I have a sports blog. Yeah I know ladies, I can hear you sports ewwee. But hold on am not finished yet. Now am not getting rich fromfrom it. However, I make enough to pay my bills and suriveon. The more I put into it, the more I make. Well enoungh butthat. Well it is July forth, and I have been up for about three daysnow. Yes I had no sleep. If you want to know why, I am going to tell you. So if you donot please stop reading, and go give some cheeseiee lineto that chic or guy. Good am glad you stayed. Now, I HAVE BEEN UP THREE DAYS STAIGHT, because AM SO DOWNAND OUT. I do not want to eat a bullet or jump off a cliff oreat the rat possion. I am tried of the nightmares, I call them nightmares becausewhen I close my eyes all I see is her. I wake up in a cold sweat.and sometimes, it hurts me so bad, I get up out of bed, andi start walking till my legs hurt. I walk everyday about four miles. I think and pray aboutmy life. Well, anyways I will be ok. I have this Blog, andmy sports blog to keep me busy. So I hope your holiday, is great one. And for my new friend one her you know who you are, have a goodday. I will keep giving my Lummpy thoughts, to you .

Staying up for three Days

Now I know I have not written on my blog,for a few days. However, i have posting a a few group sites. If you look I have been busy on here AAF.Not only that I have been commenting on other blogs here on AAF.Which I have been reading alot on a recent blog, also. am not going to drop no names, that is not my style. Yet, I an going to say I love your sexxy ways, and i love groviee cruries. you know who you are, by the way I would like those Wonder Woman pics.LoLI have also been rebuilding my Blog, oh no that this one, i blog here to give me a brake, and to talk to some new people. And hopefully hook up with someone that will not brake my heart and take my dog.LoL. She knows that I forgive her and that I still Love her.But I like said I had to totaly rebuild my blog. you can really tell from here, but my job is blogging.You see I have a sports blog.Yeah I know ladies, I can rear you sports ewwee.But hold on am not finished yet. Now am getting rich from from it. However,I make enough to pay my bills and surive on. The more i put into it, the more i make. Well enoungh but that.Well it is July forth, and I have been up for about three days on. Yes I had no sleep. If you want to know why, I am going to tell you. so if you do not please stop reading, and go give some cheese line to that chic or guy. Good am glad you stayed. Now, I HAVE BEEN UP THREE DAYS STAIGHT, because AM SO DOWN AND OUT. I do not want to eat a bullet or jump off a cliff or eat the rat possion. I am tried of the nightmares, I call them nightmares because when I close my eyes all I see is her. i wake up in a cold sweat. and sometimes, it hurts me so bad, I get up out of bed, and i start walking till my legs hurt. I walk everyuday about four miles. I think and pray about my life. Well, anyways I will be ok. I have this Blog, and my sports blog to keep me busy.So I hope your holiday, is great one.And for my new friend one her youmknow who you are, I have a good day. I will keep giving my Lummpy thoughts,to you and to are group.Well Nuff Said.

A nightmare

My girlfriend left me again and calls me and told me, she just married another man. Now I was arrested a week before, I was in jail for 8days, she picks me up and she has sex with me and then she leaves me. Now am in the fight for my life, everybody has turned against me, only my sister is sticking by me. I am just broke up inside over this, I love her and the kids, FUCKING DHS. Now I feel like the world is against me, for DHS took my kids away from my life and the woman I love ran away. This is a nightmare that I cannot wake up from. It hurts me and I have to stop writing right now, I will post more later. I hope everyone prays for me I need it God Bless,

Being Ranked

Am ranked 3 out of 10, on the Google Bar. Yes this is a sports blog, I know however I will vent on my life here they are not posts. I say again these are not post, real life problems am going through, real pain, am a scared of day to day. I have lost everything and trying to get my life back, I have no control in what Diana will do the woman I love. I pray that god will touch her and that she will come back home and support me in my time of need. So this ranking can kiss my ass!!! My life is not 3 out of 10, my life is 1o out 10. Again I Mike D Lunsford, ask for your prayers I need them. God bless

Do you ever feel like you are in the TV show 24 ?

Do you ever feel like you are in the TV show 24? I do, lost my job, went to jail, have fight in court, FUCKING DHS took my kids away from me, when they should have help my kids, my love of my life(Diana) ran off with another man. All in a 3 week time line. God I need you, please. By Mike D Lunsford.

Things are looking better

I called one of my ex coworkers, from the hotel where I was working at. Her name is Sue-Beth. i told Sue-Beth, about my problems and and we both cried a little. Sue offered me a job doing catering. So I will be starting that soon, the only fall back is it is part time, part time is better than no time at all. Now if I can only get the rest of my life straight again. A job will not solve all my problems, but it is a good start. I have other job leads that I am following up on. Now the only thing I really need is to get this court crap done with and do what is ordered to do, classes, in anger, what ever the court tells I will do it. I pray that my ex, would get her head out of her ass, and stick by me. Diana, I have one prayer, that is for us to get back together after the dust clears. For now am planning to work and look for more work so I can pay for all my mistakes. Well that is all about my life, I ask that everyone still pray for my family and my self. I thank you all, Mike D Lunsford

Trying to stop smoking

Trying to stop smoking By Mike D Lunsford.
Before I lost my job I was smoke free for about two mouths. Then the first week of April 2007, I lost my job. Then a week later I was arrested and was in jail for eight long days. Then three weeks into the mouth now, my girlfriend Diana, whom her and her three kids was living me leaves me,and ran off with another man and gets married. So I have to say am pretty stressed out so I went and bought a pack of smokes and started smoking again. Nothing else calms me down, I mean damn my whole life went down in three weeks. However, there is hope I believe, I have to to. I have been filling out apps for work, in person and calling jobs and filling out apps online. I have to keep busy so I do not lie down and die. Your will to live is strong, I try to tap into that and find my way out of this mess. So I blog and I wait for the phone to ring and I make calls, while I smoke.
It could be worse I could not be doing nothing at all and doing drugs or drinking. But I am trying real hard to stop smoking once more. I do believe that I will find a job and pay what I need to, then I will stop smoking. For know smoking will kill me one day if I do not stop. Which I wrote earlier I will not just lay down and die so I will stop. By Mike D Lunsford

For the Love of my Life Diana

This post will be for Love of my Life, Diana. Diana and myself fell in love each other about seven years ago. We started seeing each other as friends at first, but the more we talked and we started to figure out that we liked each other and that grow into a love that always has brought as back to each other over the next few years. I still remember our first date I was so happy because I knew back then I was in love with Diana. I picked her up at her sisters house, and we drove around for awhile, making small talk trying to brake the ice, even though we knew one another quite well. For we have been friends for a couple of years by now. Well I took her out to eat at a local Diner called the Skyline. After we ate I stopped at my friends house. His name is Scott, so we stayed long enough to drink a beer. Then I asked Diana if she wanted to see a movie at my house she said yes, so we drove to my home and we went in my room and I started Jurassic Park 3. We laid in my bed holding each other. I remember how she smelt, her hair long and black. The deepest brown eyes I have ever seen. I was in heaven. My heart was beating hard, as I was running my hands across her back. So we started to kiss and make out a little, ok we made out alot. Well we did this till real late then we fell a sleep then. We woke up and we went back to her house for a little bit. Then I took her to pick up her car at her friends house Shawna. We gave each other a kiss good bye and we talked to one another through out the day. And we dated for about three mouths. Well she calls me up one day from Shawna's house, and told me that she was pregnant from her last boyfriend. His name was Randy, I asked Diana how long she has been pregnant? Diana, she said the Doctor told her about 4 to 5 mouths. My heart was rushing I did not care. I will love the baby like it was my own. Well she said she would see me tonight. Well I went to go pick her up from her job and we went to her house, and we talked and she told me she needed to give Randy a chance. I did not like it, but I could not disrespect her either. My heart was filled with sadness. So I stayed away, even though I loved her and Diana Loved me to. It was hard but we did it. Then one day her sister called me and told me Diana was arrested and jail. So I started to save my money to pay off her fines. Well she go out before I could pay off her tickets. We talked a couple of times after that and we both told each other that we love each other but she needs to give Randy a chance. So I started to date Nicci, well I got Nicci, pregnant and I felt proud and sad at the same time, because in my heart I was in love with Diana, and I knew that she still loved me still enough we have not seen or talked to each other in about 8 long mouths. I went a head and married Nicci, even though I did not want. Well the day I came home from my honeymoon Diana called me at my moms house. I heard her voice on the phone and my heart skipped a beat, I just came home from my honeymoon with my pregnant wife and my one true love was on the phone. Damn it!!!!!! I had to tell her!!! I broke her heart. I never will love Nicci, after that. Nicci and I broke up a year later and I tracked down Diana again. Well Diana was already dating another guy named Jimmy, her and three children was living with him. Well started talking again and then the next thing we know her and Jimmy broke up, and we picked up where we left off three years ago. Well we dated for about two mouths and everything was good. Well Diana, had a little trouble, with her oldest child and she woke up one morroning, after we had a great night. And she rolled out of my bed, I got out of bed with her and I walked her to her car. Gave Diana a kiss good bye and told her I will pick her up from work tonight, she said ok. Well I went to my friends house later that day and Shawna called me on my cell phone and told me she was sorry. And wanted to know if I was ok? I said yes am great. Why?? Diana, just quit the bar where they both worked at. And I said?? Well mike you do not know? Know what ?? Diana and Jimmy got married today. No she just left my house!!!! Am sorry Mike, Shawna told me. My heart was broken into a millions peaces. Well that was Sunday, well I cried all night and I called. My love what did you do ? Well drove up to her work on Monday morring. I sat in my truck and smoked a couple of cigrects. Then I walked in there and told her I love her and I know she still Loved me. I know she did I can see it in her eyes. Well I said it will not last and I know you will be back and I will take you back. I said I give it two years. Well a year and 11 mouths later. Shawna calls and said Diana and Jimmy are getting a divorce. I just smiled I knew it. My love is coming back. Well of course we got back together again, this time I am sure we will get it right. Well of course my ego and my ass broke us up for about 8 weeks. After we was planning on getting married and living together for 6 mouths. Well we get back together I got us a new house and we forgave each other but it was hard on both us for we both did things wrong to one another. We are still love with each other but it was still hard. Now this time I get am the one that gets arrested and she lets me sit in there lets face it Diana had to. I love her and I did understand why she did not help me get out. Well my sisters found away to get the money to get me out. Well when I was let out I called her and she came and picked me up. And we went home and made love and when we woke up we made love all day long. She went to work and I stayed at home, well my friends came by and I would not get up and answer the door they called and I did not pick up the phone. Well they took it up on them selves to go to her work and cause trouble. And they called my sisters called, all hell broke lose. Well Diana calls me and tells me about it. So I call my sisters and calm them down. Well Diana comes home and she gets in bed with me. And we talk alittle and then, we go to sleep. And she gets a call in the morring to go to work at a dog food plant and I get up and take her. She calls and I go pick her up she takes a shower and then I take her to her to her other job at the bar. Well I go pick her up she is not there. Well I panic, I am up for two days. Well the second night I call her job at the bar and they tell me she is not there because she ran off with another guy and I get called everything in book. Well I still Love Diana and I have going back to our house, about two days a week For two weeks straight and we have been trading emails back and forth some mean to one another. I also called her a few times on the phone too. We have been seeing each other now it has been ruff because we still love each other. But I have to go through court and take care of what I got to. And she has to go through DHS court to get the kids back. I do not know why she did it I just do not care. I know she still loves me and I love her now and forever. And for what means to the readers I know that one day soon the Love of my life and I will get back together with our kids. God always brings us back together and I know this Diana know this. All of our friends and family knows this. I pray after the coourt that we both have to through and when the dust clears. That God once more brings us back together once more. And when it happens I promise Diana and our kids God I will be ready for her with open arms. I love you Diana and you I forgive you and I hope forgive me also. I will be here when you are ready to come home. By Mike D Lunsford

Hello World

Hello World